Missing....

Sooooo its 2:53 am right now and Im writing this with feelins not thoughts.. real shit for real people..

Never been afraid to admit it somewhere I went missing...
maybe I packed my bags when they told me I was tripping...
I couldn't call it truths with those who believed the fiction...
went from tryna change they minds to just minding my business...
forget it, sometimes I rather just leave my phone off...
least then I wouldn't have to ignore all of the phone calls...
tired of seeing all of the wrong calls in my phone log..
and only my road dawgs am I ever gone call...
know sum nuqqas I should call but I don't call...
cant reach my phone to busy tryna reach my goals yall..
must yall talking bout the past in which im not livin...
or talking bout a future yall aint tryna bring in existence...
Not saying that I'm better I guess Im just tired of wishing...
Tired thinking a nuqqa would know better and finding out they didn't...
this is chess not checkers boy, and if it was well
put some kings up on yo checker board expect to score...
thoughts golden heart frozen star scooping part focused...
part molded from dart pokings and scars holding...
all the meanings to my pain reason for the rage...
reason u see me shining but all I ever see is rain...
reason I put my feelins in a cage to afraid
to let them out and find out the results still the same...
you just want me to care i just wanna be sure...
that under that sheep's clothing aint lurking a wolf...
so even when I have all these thoughts that i should stay...
I know its easier to leave you here and just walk away...
nothing new I been missing for a minute if you really care where i be...
consider this a map for your journey come and find me...